Textual Retrospective, 2012

In 2011, I set a goal for myself that I would finish 120 books. I made it through 119.

That’s 20 more books than I finished this year, which (oddly enough) probably means that I’m working harder at UCSB than I had been at NYU. Since this is a mark of how many books  I completed, all those JSTOR articles and photocopied chapters and half-of-books that I read through for class and papers don’t exist. Which, admittedly, leads to an overview of my reading habits that is decidedly skewed. On the other hand, the odds that I will remember which critical articles I’ve read are slightly higher than the odds that I’ll remember the books I’ve read. (Articles exist on my harddrive and are sorted according to which class I read them for. That way I can prove that I read them. Or most of them.)

The full list, as always, can be found on my Shelfari page. The breakdown, for now, is as follows:

Books of 2012

Or, for those of you who hate pie charts:

Books of 2012 Bar Graph

The problem with both these graphs is that, while they tell you a fair amount about my broader reading habits, they provide no meaningful information about which exact books I read and, more to the point, which I enjoyed. What do you know about my reading habits from this graph? Nothing. Mind you, you could learn a fair amount about my current Excel habits…

The most meaningful information I could probably give you is, in the end, my favorite books from each of the aforementioned genres.

Classics: Emma by Jane Austen. (Yes, I’ve read it before. It’s still wonderful.)

Contemporary Fiction: A tie between Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides and Skippy Dies by Paul Murray. (Oh, come on. You all knew I was going to cheat and double up at some point.)

Speculative Fiction: The duology The Killing Moon and The Shadowed Sun  by N. K. Jemisin. (A duology that was published in the same calendar year counts as one book for the purposes of picking favorites. Right? Right.)

Mystery: The Long Goodbye by Raymond Chandler.

Fiction NOS (not otherwise specified): Only Revolutions by Mark Danielewski. (The problem with a category that only has one entrant is that one’s “favorite” is not necessarily a book on enjoyed at all. Do not read this book. Poke at it, analyze it, try and make sense of it, get angry at it but do not attempt to actually read it in the traditional sense. If you want to try Danielewski, start with House of Leaves, which was a contender for my favorite work of Speculative Fiction I read this year.)

Non-Fiction: Now You See It by Kathy Davidson, which wins slightly over When God Talks Back by T. M. Luhrmann.

Children’s Literature: So You Want to be a Wizard by Diane Duane.

Young Adult: Spindle’s End by Robin McKinley. (Yes, I reread some of her books this year and pretty much any of the ones I revisited* could have taken this spot. I tend to destress during finals by rereading my favorite authors from when I was younger. This time around, Spindle’s End was my favorite).

Graphic Novel: Meanwhile by Jason Shiga. (This might be the world’s most complicated choose your own adventure story. Also, you can destroy the world by eating chocolate ice cream. A kid’s book, in its way, but also a brilliant look at non-traditional storytelling.)

I’m not entirely sure if these qualify as recommendations. Most of them fall into the category of “if you like this sort of thing, this is the sort of thing you will like”. Which might seem like faint praise, but I am willing to concede that not everyone finds the psychological science behind how we pay attention to be interesting or thinks that the best fantasy novel is the one that manages to escape from traditional settings and biases while still telling an exciting and deeply compelling epic story with fully realized characters.

There is a midrash that, now that God has finished creating the world, he spends his time making matches between people. I prefer to think that he spends his time making matches between people and the books they should be reading.

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This post has been brought to you by William Blake’s “America, A Prophecy”. That poem is the strangest thing I have read so far this year, and I say that as someone who spent a good week over break reading through the Lord of the Rings wiki and brushing up on my history of Middle Earth.

* As I ascertained this year with the help of a friend (who I am fairly sure will eventually forgive me for involving her in the experiment) not everything McKinley has written is worth rereading. Or even worth reading.

It Begins Again

My second quarter of TAing has begun. Because the English building has absolutely nothing resembling an auditorium, our classes always end up in whatever building does. In this case, it was the Chemistry building.

So my morning was a bit like this:

http://wheninacademia.tumblr.com/post/37138684295/when-i-have-to-find-a-building-on-the-science-side-of

The Tolkien reference is appropriate, given that, during section, I asked my students to read Dylan Thomas’s “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night” and, in the last five minutes of section, showed them Aragorn’s speech at the Battle of the Morannon and asked them to think about the relationship between the two.

I think I’m going to enjoy this quarter.

Concerning Hobbits

The trouble with being on vacation is that I get bored easily. So I end up spending more time here than usual even as less is happening than usual. All I need to do is think of things to say.

This post, as the title might suggests, contains spoilers. If you have yet to see The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey and don’t want to know what happens in the movie, be forewarned: I’m going to talk about it. Ditto if you’ve never read the book and will be annoyed if I mention things that happen beyond this first movie. Basically, if it’s related to Tolkien’s works and it’s available for reading or viewing, it is fair game in this post.

I went to see The Hobbit today. Again. I had seen it for the first time in imax 3D and, this time, I saw it in regular 3D but with the high frame rate.* The imax wasn’t worth it and was actually detrimental to one’s appreciation of the sweeping vistas of New Zealand. The HFR, on the other hand, was nice and added a touch of clarity especially to the scenes at the beginning. It made the Hobbiton scenes feel a bit more realistic. It added depth to the already 3D.

I liked the movie the first time I saw it. I really liked it the second time. In between those two viewings, the following things happened.

1) My expectations had changed. It has been over a decade since the last time I had read the Hobbit, but I still remember some things from it. And the movie didn’t always match up with those memories and it was jarring. The second time around, I knew where the movie was going to deviate and was thus entirely unsurprised by it. I now knew that they had decided to take the story of the Hobbit and retell it in the style of Lord of the Rings and I knew how they proposed to do it, so I could appreciate what they were actually doing rather than what they chose not to do.

2) I reread the Hobbit. Well, 2/3s of it. As it happens, I’m still rereading it. And I began to appreciate just how different Tolkien’s style was in this book than in Lord of the Rings. He exists far more prominently here as the narrator and he is telling a story to children. Which is not to say that it’s a childish story, but it is a children’s book. And Jackson et. al. could have embraced that and told an entirely different kind of story with it and I wish, a little, that that movie would exist as well, alongside THE HOBBIT: THE PREQUEL TRILOGY TO THE LORD OF THE RINGS! Which this most certainly is. The changes they made are not arbitrary or random. You might not agree with their broader aim of recreating the Hobbit as an epic, but within the context of this broader aim, their retelling makes much more sense.

3) I rewatched all the Lord of the Rings movies. After watching the extended edition of all three, The Hobbit no longer seemed, well, long. Quite short, actually. Less running around than Fellowship and fewer shifts in points-of-view than Return. Having just seen those movies, the Hobbit fit in better. Also, I was reminded that my love for the Lord of the Rings movies was also a product of (endless) rewatchings. When Fellowship was first released, I remember picking apart the casting choices with my friends. When Two Towers came out, I was annoyed that they shifted the entire Minas Morgul sequence to the third movie in favor of fighting the Battle at Helms Deep in excruciating detail. And when I first saw Return of the King, I was shocked that they killed Saruman in the beginning and cut the entire scouring of the Shire. And I thought that letting Viggo Mortensen sing was a mistake. I don’t care about any of that anymore (well, except for Viggo’s singing). The movies were and are slightly ridiculous. Elijah Wood spends too much time with his eyes rolled back, John Rhys Davies can overplay the comic relief, Sean Astin’s “Mister Frodo!”s still occasionally make me giggle. They are not perfect movies and I don’t care. I love them immoderately, I think that their grandeur, their spectacle, their occasional excesses–whether in the realm of (over)acting, of scenery or of length–all work, in the end, to create the best epic that could have been filmed. The Hobbit, in terms of both grandeur and excess, fits right in.

4) I’ve been reading The One Wiki to Rule Them All. Tolkien’s world is ridiculously complicated and it makes the movies look like models of restraint.

So I went into the Hobbit knowing that it was not the book I remembered (or failed to remember) and knowing that they had taken shocking liberties with the text, but bearing in mind that they had done so in Lord of the Rings and I had forgiven that and have come to love those three movies as much as I love the books. More so, in some ways, because if you told me I could only read one story for the rest of my life–and I say this in full recognition of the honor due to Tolkien–I would not pick the Lord of the Rings. If you told me I could only watch one story for the rest of my life, I would pick this set of movies without question.**

So I was more willing to love the Hobbit this second time around and I did. Which is not to say that all of my objections have floated away. They are merely contextualized.

Martin Freeman/Bilbo: Unsurprisingly, he was amazing and in an entirely different way than the hobbits in Lord of the Rings. Bilbo is a more complex character than Frodo. Bilbo wants the adventure, but also doesn’t. He can handle the roughness of the road, but he also has something of a dapper gentleman about him and, in Freeman’s portrayal, those two work organically together. One of the changes that the film makes is that it transforms Bilbo into a more traditional hero. In the book, Bilbo gains the dwarves’ respect by being clever and quick and doing burglarish things. In the movie, though his cleverness comes through, Bilbo gains their respect by becoming a warrior. Courage, not cleverness, is what redeems him especially in Thorin’s eyes. And, on the one hand, I understand why they make that change, why it is important for Bilbo to seem heroic in a way particularly suited to the epic style of the films. Yet I am slightly bothered by the implications that heroism, even epic heroism, is determined by the courage it takes to run straight into death, without care for your own safety, to save another (especially because Bilbo runs courageously out to save Thorin after Thorin runs stupidly out to attack Azog while the rest of his company was in danger. Yes, the difference between them is that Bilbo is motivated for good reasons and Thorin is motivated for revenge, but still). It seems a disservice to Bilbo not to let him gain recognition by doing what he is good at. Bilbo never needs to become a warrior in the book. And while Freeman does a superb job of maintaining Bilbo’s essential Hobbit-of-the-Shire (or Victorian gentleman) nature, I wish the film itself was more willing to embrace the complex mix embodied by Bilbo. For example, both the book and movie have a scene where Bilbo forgets his pocket handkerchief when first setting out on the journey. In the movie, Bofur (I think) rips a piece of cloth off the bottom of his jacket and tosses it back to Bilbo. In the book, that’s when Gandalf rides up with all things Bilbo forgot when he rushed out in a hurry, including his pocket handkerchief. And while we are told that they will soon need to do without those niceties, Bilbo isn’t shamed for wanting them. I liked what it says about both Bilbo and Gandalf: the former thinks of the little things (which are not unimportant because they are little) and the latter thinks of others. On the other hand, it is Bilbo, not Gandalf, who keeps the goblins occupied until the break of day. So he does get to be usefully clever, but it doesn’t impress the dwarves. Thorin has this “hmmph” look when Gandalf points out what Bilbo did. Which brings us to…

Richard Armitage/Thorin Oakenshield: YUMMM! Okay, now that that’s out of the way, on to the actual character. Thorin’s characterization has changed from the book to the movie. The movie is much more vocal about the dwarves’ distrust of Bilbo’s abilities and Thorin is the one who constantly repeats it and tells him to go home. He comes across both as more of a leader than in the book and as a more of a jerk. He is assigned the stereotypical role of the sergeant who thinks the new recruit can’t cut it. And, again, it fits in well with the stylistic narrative that the movie is going for, it is evocative in the viewer’s mind of war and it sets the stage for some of Gimli’s dwarvish attitudes in the next trilogy. But it sacrifices a certain sensibleness that Thorin had over the course of the book. The following quote, I think, sums up how Jackson and Armitage are playing Thorin: “I’ve seen some people say that the filmmakers put all this focus on Thorin because they needed an Aragorn figure. Except, as those of you who’ve read the book know (and if you haven’t, SPOILERS, seriously, what are you doing here!), Thorin isn’t Aragorn, he’s Boromir” (Tor.com). Yes, exactly. With this in mind (and I had forgotten what happened to Thorin at the end of the book), these choices to make Thorin aspiring to greatness, but flawed actually work in the story’s favor. Because then Thorin charging down the burning tree to attack Azog isn’t meant to be seen as heroic, but as emblematic of his issues. He cannot put himself aside, not his revenge, not his heritage and not his goals. Not for anything. So I like that the movie is building up this Thorin; it seems like a chance to give some extended characterization to the archetype that Sean Bean played in Fellowship. But Thorin, for all that Richard Armitage does a wonderful job with it, is not quite the same character he is in the books and the choice to make his background even more angst-filled and his prejudices even more blatant was, while not bad, not good either. It has its merits, but it would have been nice to see the doomed leader of the company not fit quite so exactly into the stereotypical spot reserved for the pigheaded.

Azog the Defiler: I’m still not fully convinced that there were so few villains and plot motivators in this movie and we had to invent another. Azog was supposed to have died during the battle for Moria. He kills Thror and, eventually, Dain son of Nain kills him. Of course, if you keep to that story, then Thorin doesn’t get to be super-angsty about how no one ever came to their aid ever. But, other than that, why bring back Azog? If you need some extra motivation, bring in his son Bolg and have Bolg chase them with the wargs. (Bolg and the orcs do show up at the Battle of the Five Armies at the end. Really, it’s not difficult to make this work here). And then you even get to keep the rabbit sleigh chase scene, which was delightful. I was more annoyed about Azog the first time; I still think he’s not exactly necessary, but I’ve come to terms with his inclusion. I reserve the right to revoke that coming-to of terms if they don’t let Dain kill him in the end.

Sylvester McCoy/Radagast: Dear filmmakers, was the bird poop really necessary!? It was all I could look at! Otherwise, I thought that actually making Radagast part of the story and letting us see him was a very smart move. It integrates the whole “Necromancer of Dol Guldur” thing, which the book has no interest in doing, and sets up the next movie and, hopefully, the battle against the Necromancer. Also, the bunny sleigh!

Most of this movie, like Fellowship, was just the set-up and Jackson did a fantastic job mimicking the broader arc and pacing of Fellowship in this movie. I suppose when you invent the genre, you can do a good job recreating it. All in all, I eagerly await the next two.

But, before I stop, I have to lose my temper ever so slightly at one reviewer. Ruth David Konigsberg writes about how frustrated she is at the absence of women in The Hobbit. There are several things wrong with this piece. The first is that she attributes her alienation from Tolkien’s oeuvre and the surrounding fandom to its absence of women. Really? Because there are uncountable numbers of fanfics written about Tolkien’s world by women that include women. They clearly found something for themselves in it. There’s no absence of female fans. And, I have to wonder, is this the author’s reaction to all historical stories that focus on men?

I did not read The Hobbit or the Lord of the Rings trilogy as a child, and I have always felt a bit alienated from the fandom surrounding them. Now I think I know why: Tolkien seems to have wiped women off the face of Middle-earth. I suppose it’s understandable that a story in which the primary activity seems to be chopping off each other’s body parts for no particular reason might be a little heavy on male characters — although it’s not as though Tolkien had to hew to historical accuracy when he created his fantastical world. The problem is one of biological accuracy. Tolkien’s characters defy the basics of reproduction: dwarf fathers beget dwarf sons, hobbit uncles pass rings down to hobbit nephews. If there are any mothers or daughters, aunts or nieces, they make no appearances. Trolls and orcs especially seem to rely on asexual reproduction, breeding whole male populations, which of course come in handy when amassing an army to attack the dwarves and elves.

Several points. Criticizing Tolkien for “hewing to historical accuracy” is absurd, given that he saw himself as creating a mythology for Europe. This was both his career and his passion. He based his stories on the Norse Eddas, on the songs and stories that came out of Northern Europe and his goal was to recreate them in his own mythology. (Yes, there is a broader problem with not questioning sexist assumptions when writing fantasy ostensibly set in Medieval Europe and simply writing because that’s what everyone else does. When writing a sexist world or a world that has no place for women, it behooves the author to ask why. In Tolkien’s case, it’s because the stories, the mythologies, the histories he was inventing were meant to evoke those of 1,000 years ago that were lost.)

More to the point, Konigsberg’s objections are already answered by Gimli in The Two Towers.

Gimli: It’s true you don’t see many dwarf women. And in fact, they are so alike in voice and appearance, that they are often mistaken for dwarf men.
Aragorn: [whispering] It’s the beards.

And it’s true. Over the course of the beginning narration, you see dwarf men in the mines and dwarf women in the marketplaces of Dale, selling jewels. And yes, the women have sparse and neatly combed beards. When they are exiled from Erebor, you see male and female dwarves wandering across the marshlands to their new home. In Hobbiton, you see male and female hobbits working the land and going about their daily business. In Rivendell, you see male and female elves playing music during dinner. Yes, if you systematically erase any woman who is not a member of Thorin’s band from existence, then there are no women in this movie. There are no women in the company and yes, any time that they are the only ones on screen, the movie is rather heavy on the men. But every single civilization we meet shows both men and women participating in life. It’s as though Konigsberg thinks women only exist when they’re a part of the journey–as if the only way you could be a woman and count is to do exactly what the men do.

She also seems quite sure that all the orcs and goblins we meet are male. She assumes that the default position for a character is masculine and that women only exist when they are positioned as feminized. What would a female warg rider look like? Would she have a pink helmet?

And I probably shouldn’t take my anger out entirely on Konigsberg, but it seems to me that her comments stem from a larger problem with “inclusivity.” Being inclusive becomes about finding ways to erase differences rather than embrace them. Because when you ask for female heroes and then assume that the only acceptable kind of female hero is one who takes up her father’s sword and learns to fight and becomes a ruler by leading an army, you are pretty much effacing every other kind of power there is. It’s a bit like deciding that the only acceptable happy ending is one where the protagonist and their love interest fall in love and bind themselves together for all eternity.

The question shouldn’t be “why aren’t there any dwarf women in the company?” but “why don’t we see the struggle of the dwarf women to make a home for themselves in the Blue Mountains?”

They need to pad three movies out with something, don’t they?

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*For those of you who missed this little brouhaha, The Hobbit was shot at 48 frames per second instead of the industry standard 24. Theaters were running both versions.

**This may mean that there are more wonderful books out there than wonderful movies. I am okay with that.

Familiarity

The following conversation occurred in our apartment yesterday (paraphrased slightly because, as a teacher of mine  once proclaimed, “I don’t remember what I said; that was two sentences ago”). We were discussing the inability of some students to properly deploy the past perfect.

Me: So how do you teach students to hear when they are supposed to use the past perfect?

Husband: Make them read good literature. [pause] Or watch BBC costume dramas.

The advice at the end of the conversation was as follows: Imagine Obi Wan Kenobi is reading your paper aloud. If a phrase sounds wrong when he says it, change it.

Familiarity breeds comfort. When you hear or read something over and over, it begins to sound ordinary and right. After reading “enough” articles, academicese transforms, in one’s mind, from a strange way to express oneself to the natural structure of certain kinds of communication. The art of writing in high academic is simply the art of having read too many articles and being able to copy it effectively. (This, by the way, is why I usually tell my students not to attempt it. It’s a style that can only be learned through exposure and few undergraduates have been exposed to enough of it to mimic it effectively. Also, it is still not my favorite style of writing even though I have more or less found a way of deploying it in my own textual endeavors that, I hope, does not make me sound too ridiculous.) If (who I am kidding, when) I read Lord of the Rings straight through, I start to write just a bit like Tolkien. After going on a mad-dash through the works of Jane Austen, I find myself borrowing a bit of her style (not enough, unfortunately,–I would love the ability to write as she did).

And that’s just language. It makes sense that we learn language by hearing it; for it to have evolved into the transcendently powerful interhuman communication method that we know it to be, there must be a more effective method of teaching it than by, well, painstakingly teaching it. Fortunately, this is what our brains are good at. We spot patterns and conform to them without quite knowing why. Toddlers learn that “goed” is not the past tense of go when they are exposed to “went”. Given enough exposure, students too will learn the value of deploying “had been” instead of “was”.

This cognitive ability extends beyond the purely linguistic. The brain decides what is correct by examining that which it is exposed to most often and assuming that its presence connotes its correctness.* Which brings me, somewhat circularly, back to books.

I mentioned, in my last post (to which you are all still free to respond), that I think we read differently as adults than as children and that, when we are children, stories feel “more real” to us. My mother said something similar, that she felt that, as a child, she was more likely to read herself in as the protagonist rather than evaluate the protagonist as someone else, who might make different choices than she might make in the same scenario. I think we all read more analytically as adults; we assess the characters as we read rather than afterwards. As children, we are not blindly accepting readers, but we are less likely to stop in the middle and evaluate characters as distinct from ourselves. We inhabit their minds more fully when we are younger.**

And books shape our familiarity just as much as the world does. That which we become familiar with from fiction becomes a part of what we consider “normal” and “right”. So what we read and what we expose ourselves to doesn’t just shape our expectations of what books should be like, but it shapes our expectations for what the world should be like.

This has come up in my life at least four times in the past week, which is either weird or one of the coincidences that really aren’t, but are a product of being attuned to something and then noticing it more…as I said, pattern recognition.

But I want to comment on some of those instances nonetheless:

1) I was reading a post (and, subsequently, the entire comments section) on Tor.com about Historically Authentic Sexism. The argument is, in short, that defending the absence of women (or women relegated entirely to the roles of sexual objects or rape victims…or both) in fantasy novels because, “historically, women have had no part in the power structure and it’s authentic that all they do is give birth and get raped” is ridiculous because a) if you can have dragons, you can have women doing things they didn’t historically do and b) history is a narrative written by men who were not very good at understanding the powerful roles that women did have and who would fairly often leave them out of historical narratives because they assumed they weren’t important. (I’m not saying all historians are evil, sexist monsters, but that in the same way that history is written by the victors, men writing history are not only not good at seeing female contribution, but also invested in downplaying it). The article goes into more depth, but the point, for now, is that if you keep retelling stories where women have no agency, you make people believe that women doing things is weird and the only reason to write a story with female agency is because you have some feminist agenda to make women the center of everything. Women having power (in any sense) feels like a deviation from the norm, rather than a return to what had actually happened. Because we are more familiar with the narrative that says women are powerless, the actual complexity of history feels wrong. This is true of just about all the shallow historical narratives that float around–every single human being in Europe was either white or a slave, gender norms are immutable and were exactly the same everywhere, the entire period in between the Fall of Rome and the Renaissance was a dark cesspit of despair, to name just three–and they all disappear with a more in depth examination of the historical documentation. But those in depth understandings are not the stories that circulate and so we find them…unbelievable.

As a corollary to this point, someone in the comments was writing about how important exposure is in helping even young kids understand diversity and shared the following story about her son. (For those unfamiliar with the term, PoC means person of color and refers to someone who is not white. Comment is posted here as is, because I see no reason to correct other peoples’ hastily typed spelling mistakes.)

“I think my son only has two books in which PoC chara’s feature, which is a shame. We live in a town which is predominatly white (changing a bit more recently) and an incidant when he started school really bought home to me his inexperiance with various shades of skin. There is a black skinned boy in his class (just started school). On his way home he pointed out how very, very dark he was. He seemed upset, which concerned me. When I asked him why he told me he thought he must have been attacked by a dragon. Why? Becuase when a dragon attacks you (lots of demonstration and description of dragon) it burns you with its fire breath and your body turns black and you die. Is he a zombie?

I was a bt shocked-needless to say. My son was more familiar with dragons, zombies and the state of burned to death bodies that PoC! That last, btw, I have no idea where it came from. So when we got home I explained melatonin and demonstrated by adding coffee to milk, pointing out that my own skin was much darker than his. (Which he blinked at saying he had not noticed).

He has also sinced realised that Africans are black and he adores everything about africa (they do have the best animals after all). ” (Comment #124)

Familiarity. I imagine this child has not encountered very many dragons or zombies in his daily life, but the stories he heard and saw about them made a part of his cognitive world view. Most adults probably wouldn’t reach for quite that fantastical a response, but we do still explain things through our own lens of familiarity. My first explanation for a woman wearing a hat is that she is married and it still takes me a moment to remind myself that that explanation is only true within a very constrained set of circumstances. But I am familiar with it.

2) The previous example was either slightly depressing or a call to arms. I prefer to think of it as the latter, as a reminder that the rules that govern our expectations and our experiences are not immutable. That we can effect change by writing new narratives and telling different stories.

But that still leaves the question of what happens to the other narratives? What do we do with the stories we once told, but whose implications are no longer something with which we want to be associated? Obviously, I am not advocating the blanket removal of everything that does not exactly agree with the stories we wished we could tell (I’ve seen societies that do that and they are scary) nor do I think that banning things is a good idea. But then where does that leave us?

Over the weekend, my sister brought up the book Cinderella Ate my Daughter and what it says about the culture of ultra-femininity marketed to young girls. This almost immediately became a discussion about the Disney princesses as role models and we covered the usual ground of the movie princesses versus the princess marketing, the mid 20th century princesses versus the 1990s princesses, what the messages in the movies actually are (and I ended up in the strange position of arguing for the Little Mermaid as a feminist work, which is not a stance I usually take. To quote: “either Ariel is a free-thinking young woman who bravely rejects racism to forge her own destiny and create a lasting peace between two cultures or she’s an idealized anti-feminist icon, complete with Barbie-doll figure and shell bikini, completely willing to throw away her family, her culture, and her own voice for the sake of a man she’s never even met” (Ana Mardoll)).

The point I ended up making (and, yes, it’s disingenuous to continue the argument in a forum where I am sole arbiter of content, but it’s not like my sister will be reading this anyway) is that it’s a mistake to police content based entirely on what you yourself are reading out of it. Because my reading of Belle as a powerless victim whose one act of agency is the traditional feminine sacrifice for a man does not annihilate your reading of her as an outcast who is not afraid to be different and who uses her love of learning to claim a place for herself beyond a society that has no place for someone like her. There is no real Belle. There is no real Ariel. There is even no real Cinderella. There is only the message you read from it.

And, yes, there is something of a larger cultural issue with happily ever after achievable only through marriage and the idea of “the prince” as the ultimate achievement in life, but I don’t think the response should be to ban Disney movies from a child’s collection of media.

Now, of course, would be the time to offer what I think a response could be. I’m not entirely sure I have one. I think that one of the things you can do is question these assumptions when you notice yourself or others complicit in them. Ask why things must be so. Basically, I am arguing for literary critique in all its powerful forms, for an awareness of what we read.

And, as a corollary to that, rewrite the stories. Own these stories by retelling them. I am not the first to argue for fanfiction as a form of literary critique, but it’s an incredibly powerful vehicle for changing narratives and shaping familiar experiences. Which, I suppose, brings me back to my earlier point. Write new stories. Tell new narratives. When thinking about young children, play imaginary games with them and invite them to tell new stories. Play “what if” games. Let them ask “why” and encourage them to hold on to the impulse to ask “but why should I believe you?” (Except, perhaps, when sending them to bed.) When thinking about those of us who no longer read like children, play these imaginary games anyway.  Choose to read or retell stories in such a way that makes you familiar with the experiences you value and draws attention to the kind of normality you seek to pursue. Stories need not agree with you on all counts, but being able to recognize where a story is using familiar cultural tropes to say something with which you disagree goes a long way towards preventing you from swallowing it. Once you know the difference between “you’re” and “your”, a thousand typos will not be enough to make it appear right.

The flip side of “You are what you choose” is  “Choose again and change.”***

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* Yes, this is one of the cardinal sins of neuroscience–speaking about the brain as if it “decides” or “assumes” the way that humans who possess brains decide and assume. It doesn’t quite make sense to speak about the brain this way, but we don’t really have the language to discuss what is going on outside the realm of conscious experience, so we co-opt the language of the conscious mind to describe the unconscious. If you’re interested in this whole idea of the brain making decisions heuristically, without our consciousness of it, I recommend Daniel Kahneman’s Thinking Fast and Slow. He doesn’t dwell on this phenomenon is particular, but his larger description of how the brain works is interesting.

**Grand sweeping statements based on very little data are our specialty here. But I have reason to believe I am not alone in this evaluation of readerly shift.  While attending an event last year, I was part of a conversation about the inability of recapturing our first, naive readings of our favorite books from when we were younger and how differently one reads Middlemarch (which was the presenter’s favorite book as a teenager) now as opposed to then. I am willing to concede, however, that this might be less an argument about the relationship between age and reading and more one about the difference between how we read before and after we are trained to critically assess what we read. Is this what we sacrifice for the skills to read analytically?

***A quote from Lois McMaster Bujold’s Mirror Dance.

One or Several Books

The NYTimes had an article in its “Room for Debate” section (which, admittedly, I usually skip because it is a) about something entirely uninteresting, b) not really a topic that seems to have any room for debate and, c) because it doesn’t load properly in Reeder, the app I use for checking the Times) about books for children and when/if it’s appropriate to allow them to read above their age level. The article can be found here.

For those of who have no patience or interest for it, the responses take two, mostly non-contradictory positions.

1) Don’t stop kids from reading what they want to read because they’re “too young” for it; if a child is really too young for a book, they will recognize and put it down and if they’re willing to get through it, who cares if they’re missing nuance.

2) Don’t give kids books beyond their age level because you want to.

Both of which I can get behind. This was not so much room for debate as a large room of people more or less agreeing. The one (comparative) voice of dissent was Paolo Bacigalupi, who recounts the experience of reading a book that was definitely not age appropriate, encountering a rape scene in the first 50 pages and being traumatized by it. He does note, though, that many of his friends were entirely unbothered by the scene, so his point is closer to “Know thy Child” than “Censor!”

I, personally, would have gotten annoyed at anyone taking books away from me, but I was also the kind of child who just read straight over things she didn’t understand. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve revisited a book I had first read as a child and found myself thinking “Wait, there was sex in this? How did I miss that?” It just entirely failed to register. But, then again, I was also very good at reading things I didn’t really understand. Which is not to say that I didn’t get the story of Pride and Prejudice the first time I read it, merely that I had no idea what the carriages looked like, how the dances were danced, what the characters were wearing, etc. and that never stopped me from following the story. I just let the things that didn’t make sense pass by . This was also my approach to vocabulary, which explains why I cannot pronounce anything. I learned too many words by reading them, rather than learning what they meant.

This makes it sound like my reading was entirely self-directed, which it wasn’t. I do disagree somewhat with the responses that chide parents for giving their children books beyond their age level. Okay, not with the librarian who complains about parents giving A Tale of Two Cities to their eight year olds because they are “precocious”. That’s appalling (and not just because it is Dickens). But, realistically, if I had just been let loose in the library and only read what I picked out myself, I don’t know if I would have ever left the science fiction and fantasy section. (As it is, the library approach leaves what to be desired. I never read Asimov because he was shelved too high for me to reach on my own.) My mother, however, would often give me books and tell me “read this, you’ll like it”. She was usually right. She would also resort to interesting methods when I was a teenager, such as sending me away to camp with reading material carefully selected by her.

So I firmly believe that encouraging children to “read up” is a good idea, even to the extent of providing them with books beyond their age-group’s reading level…provided you are giving them a specific book because you think they will like it. Giving a child Dickens as a kind of reading lesson/educational gambit is ridiculous. Giving her Bronte because you think she will like it is an entirely different story.

Although, you might want to beware Bronte at a young age. It could be a bit too influential, in the same way and for the same reason that there is all this worry about young girls modeling their romantic desires after Edward Cullen. Arguably (and, by all means, argue) Rochester is just as problematic an object-of-desire as Edward.

Here’s the point where I poll the audience, because I have a vague theory about the differences between children readers and adult readers brewing, but I’m curious whether this is just my experience or a broader one. (Also, I’m using reader as a stand-in for “media consumer” because its convenient. If there were movies, TV shows, video games to which these questions are applicable, feel free to answer using them.)

So, audience, were stories “realer” to you as a child than now? Did you find your reading experience more immersive, was it easier to get lost in the stories and pretend they were real? Did you pretend they were real? Is that something you do as an adult, lose yourself so completely in a story that it seems tangible to you? Did your favorite main characters as a child shape who you are? Do your current favorites still do so?

Feel free to post your thought in the comments!

Tell Me an Essay

As some of you could probably have guessed, I should be doing something else right now. I am only two-thirds of the way done with my second paper and, while it isn’t due until Monday, my students’ finals and final papers will arrive tomorrow and Friday respectively. All things considered, I would prefer to be done producing my work before assessing theirs.

I am actually looking forward to their final papers, though. My students were given the option of writing a short detective story for their final paper instead of the traditional research paper and most of them took that option. I have a feeling – and we will soon see whether this hunch of mine is correct – that we are better storytellers than we are essay writers. Most human interactions that have passed the “hello, how are you” phase are either stories or arguments.* We tell people about what is going on in our lives, or what we are reminded of by current events or why it is we feel what we feel…we tell stories. Or we engage in conversations where we are either attempting to convince the other person that what we think is correct or attempting to explain to them the logic behind our opinions…we argue. Arguments are not a bad thing; in the right context and with respect, they can be incredibly productive. But, and this is just my personal experience so take that for what it is worth, we are far less discerning when it comes to arguments than stories and we reward good stories more often and more regularly than we do good arguments. In the end, then, we are far less capable of creating a well-crafted argument than a well-told tale.**

We know what a good story is. We all have a friend or two who can make even the most boring collection of interactions into an hour long comedic routine. We read stories, we listen to them, we play them on our computers and we watch them on our televisions. And sometimes the content of these stories is…how do I put this? Ah, yes. Godawful. But as we read, listen, play and watch, our tastes become more discerning. We discover not only what we like, but also what does not work for us. And we incorporate that into, if nothing else, the way we speak. But more importantly, the structure of the story; the way events unfold, the rising action, the climax and the wrap-up become more familiar to us and we know, even if we don’t know that we know or know how we know, how stories progress.

On the other hand, we collectively suck at arguing. This is not just because we live in a culture that still somehow thinks that volume is an effective debating tactic or because there is a whole collection of people who think that personal remarks are the same thing as an effective rebuttal, though I admit, those do lower the respect we collectively have for the act of arguing. If an argument will inevitably descend into a shouting match, then why engage in it?*** No, the problem is that we get into arguments because we think the purpose of an argument is to prove the other person wrong. What arguments should be, in an ideal world, is an attempt to articulate our own thoughts on a subject so that we can a) better understand why we ourselves think the things we think and b) help our interlocutors understand where we are coming from and how we arrived at our positions. As far as I can tell, the only place that argument still (more or less) aspire to that lofty goal is in critical writing – academic papers, nonfiction books and blogposts, with the obvious caveat that this is not always true, but is sometimes true. We are, however, not rewarded for engaging in this kind of argument the way we are rewarded for telling a good story. It’s hard to win an argument when all you are doing is being respectful of another person and then explaining why you feel differently. It’s equally hard for them to win if they are willing to grant you your experiences and thoughts that bring you to a different conclusion than they reached. But we want to win arguments. We want others to “see the light” and come around to “the right way of thinking”.

Of course, that’s the other side of the problem. Arguments are actually more unwinnable the way we currently perform them. They encourage people to dig in their heels and behave more obstinately, to hold to their opinion even more tightly because they are opposed. And if the entire point of the exercise is to change the other person’s mind to match yours, then the last thing you can ever do is admit that they are right in any way. So by not staging arguments as a battle where only one opinion can emerge victorious, we would actually do a better job of creating an environment where people can change their minds and think something new.****

This is all a very long preamble (emphasis on the amble) for why I think it’s easier for students to write a well-crafted story than a well-crafted paper. They’ve just have more practice at it. I’m not sure how to fix this problem, though. I’m thinking, for next quarter, of setting up a course blog/forum and making my students post responses to the readings and then comment on one another’s responses as a way of fostering dialogue, helping the shy students get participation credit and modeling how to engage productively with another person online. Hmm.

Before that, though, I should go back to crafting my own argument in this paper. Who knows, I might even figure out what it is I’m trying to argue before I’m done.

*Please refrain from using gross generalizations in formal writing…

**And that was the point when I realized I had accidentally structured this blog post like a paper.

***I’m wondering how long it will be until I have this line delivered back to me at the dinner table while I’m visiting my parent’s house. Which is just another way of saying that I can have a respectful conversation unless two or more of my co-conversationalists are related to me.

****Also, we seem to have this deep-seated aversion to changing our minds. We think there is somehow something wrong with having had an opinion last week that is not our opinion this week. Mind-changing is invariably met with good-natured teasing, if not outright mockery–oh, remember when you thought all pop music was terrible and now you know all the words to Call Me, Maybe. (I picked this example precisely because the person I was with at the time didn’t do this to me, but easily could have. Thanks, D.) But yes, for some reason, we are baffled by this idea that we are not exactly the same people we were yesterday and so might think about things differently.

Being a Bad Blogger

Or the post about the reasons I haven’t been posting.

For those of you who look at insignificant features like dates, you will notice that it has been nearly three months since I last wrote something for this blog, which is a very long time in Internet years. Let me put it like this: I was holding a friend’s baby last night and that baby was not yet born the last time I updated this blog. In the time it has taken me to think of something to write about, a small human being has figured out how to breathe, how to suck, how to cry, that he has two hands and how to smile.

I really feel like an underachiever at the moment.

I have merely figured out how to stand up in front of a class full of students and talk. I’ll say a bit about teaching, but I don’t plan to write much about it for the very simple reason that, if you google my name, this blog will sooner or later turn up and I have far too much respect for my students to talk about them on the Internet. Also, if I were to go on and on about how brainsplatteringly terrifying it can be to be suddenly in charge and expected to know things…well, that’s unfair to them in a rather different manner.

It’s also not strictly true. I mean, there is something intimidating about facing a room full of people and suddenly being the teacher when most of your experience has been sitting in a classroom and being the student. But I am reliably informed that a) It gets better with practice, b) If you ever get to be completely blasé about teaching then you should reconsider because your nervousness means that you’re doing something new and exciting and that’s not a bad thing and c) Everyone’s second class goes better than their first. (On the very small chance that you are both reading this blog and in my 5 pm section, I apologize for unintentionally using your class as a dress rehearsal sometimes.)

But, yes. Teaching. It is happening. I now understand the value of the lesson plan (which you would think I would have worked out, given how absurd all of my teachers who eschewed them ended up looking) and I am working on mine for tomorrow. Since the class itself is on Detective Fiction (mostly Noir), I’m currently trying to decide whether to go over the structure of the detective story and look at how the detective arrives at his (or very occasionally her) conclusions or focus on the characters in the story, especially the detective. But since I am not grading your participation on this blog, dear readers, it doesn’t really affect you which I choose to focus on. (The answer, by the way, is probably half and half. I’ll see how comfortable they feel with the structural elements and, if they’ve got it, we’ll move on to character).

I feel a bit strange about class, just because the semester’s beginning has more or less coincided with Succot and I have been slingshotting back and forth between eating in a palm-fronded hut and furiously underlining German theorists (the ferocity refers to speed rather than my emotional state. I quite like Walter Benjamin when he’s dealing with technology). My own classes feel oddly relaxing, both because I know I am not responsible for structuring the discussion and because I don’t need to worry whether or not everyone is getting a chance to say what they wish.

But if I’m not going to talk about teaching and I am not going to talk about what I am doing in class and I have finally gotten over the fact that Yom Kippur here did not include the right tune for “Marei Kohein” (more or less), I am left with not all that much to talk about.

So I will just leave you with something I’ve started thinking about for detective fiction. After four short stories and one novel-length mystery, here are the stats:

Detectives: 3 male, 2 female

Victims: 3 male, 5+ female (unspecified number of women preyed on in one story)

Killers: 3 male, 2 female, 1 simian

This is it for female detectives this year, but I have a feeling we haven’t seen the last of the female corpse or of the femme fatale. At some point, I want to do a section about misogyny in detective fiction if the professor teaching this course doesn’t get there first.

A Few of my Favorite Things

As an artist I love likes to say at the beginning of her podcast, “Hello out there in Internetland!”

So it has been a while since I last posted, primarily because it has been a while since I did anything worth posting about. For those wondering about the state of my apartment, I have finally acquired a table and chairs! They came today and, after much wrestling with packing tape and the really cheap bitty wrenches that come with flat packs, the table was assembled.

The pizza came separately.

But other than putting together furniture that is admittedly less complicated than the average Lego set, how have I been occupying myself? Some of you may recall that I had noble plans to get started on the reading for my qualifying exams at the end of next May. Some of you, who know me at all well, can guess that I have not picked up a single book that will be on the exam (unless you count having physically lifted two of the books out of my knapsack and onto the coffee table and, subsequently, onto the bookshelf).

I suppose honesty is the best policy. I have been doing nothing. In my defense, it has been a very involved kind of nothing that consists of reading, watching television, cooking, neatening up the apartment (though I maintain that the apartment’s ability to become messy again five minutes later exists independently of anything I do), pondering additions to the apartment, occasionally hanging out with people to whom I am not married and so on,  but if I had to condense it into one word, the best I can do is nothing.

And it has been kind of glorious.

However, I figured I would break some of that nothing down into its aggregate parts so that I can at least blog about something and what better way to do so than through a list of some of the somethings I have enjoyed over the past month since I moved in?

  • Favorite meal:

    Pizza with Broccoli Rabe and Roasted Onions. To be fair, any pizza whatsoever, but this one gets especially high marks for flavor (even if I did burn myself on the pan that the onions were roasting in and Josh had to actually assemble the pizza because I was too busy running my hand under cold water. It was completely worth it, though). I mostly followed the recipe on this one, other than using my grandmother’s pizza dough recipe instead of the one she uses here and splitting it into two rectangular pies and substituting a mix of Mediterranean olives because that was what Whole Foods had that was kosher. But, yeah, other than that I mostly did as I was told.

  • Favorite movie:

    Brave. I realize this one does not come as a shock to anyone. But it was like seeing a new Disney movie, except maybe a little bit better…it’s like going back and seeing a Disney movie as a little kid again, where you find yourself not noticing some of the questionable messages (oh, sure, 16 year old girls are more than grown up enough to run off with a prince especially after they’ve proven their maturity by selling their souls to an octopus…why, yes, I have my biases) and being swept away by the story. And the story really was brilliant. Hats off to Pixar for a great film.

  • Favorite iOS app:

    I realize I may be the only person who has moments of “and then there was this app and it was awesome and it lets you do something you could already do anyway,” but indulge me for a moment. There’s this app called Pepperplate and it’s basically a recipe book. I have a problem wherein I google a recipe for X, find one I like and inexplicably forget to bookmark it or in any way set it apart from all the other recipes for X out there in the world. I also have an equally silly tendency to forget which bookmarks on my computer (when I remember to save the recipes) are “to try” or are “tried and liked” or are “meh”. What this app does is it lets you either manually enter or import recipes into your own personal database and then syncs across every device that has Pepperplate on it. So I can find what I want to make for dinner either online or in a cookbook, type it in or import it to the Pepperplate website and then, when I open my iPad in the kitchen, the recipe is there in the app and I can take notes on the bottom.

    I admit, I am rather more excited about this than it warrants (feel free to point that people have been doing this with pen and paper for centuries), except that it’s basically an app designed to prevent me from losing recipes I like. I like using my iPad in the kitchen and Pepperplate is the easiest way to get a recipe from my computer to the iPad and display it in a way that makes using it to cook convenient. Oh, technology. I can live without you just fine until I’ve lived with you.

  • Favorite work of non-fiction

    This was going to just be favorite book, but I couldn’t choose. To be fair, I actually had a tough time deciding which of the two really good non-fiction books I finished in the past month were worthy of being called favorite. T. M. Luhrmann’s When God Talks Back wins by about a hair. Luhrmann is an psychological anthropologist who goal in this book is to try and explain to both believers and non-believers how American Evangelicals can train themselves to experience what they perceive of as God. The book isn’t about whether they are actually experiencing God or not, it focuses on how people use their minds to encounter what feels to them like the divine. And it was one of the most interesting and thought-provoking books I have read in a long time. As a psychological book, it really highlights just how cool the brain is and, as a book about religion, it provided a fascinating framework for understanding belief and, at least for me personally, some of the shifts that have happened in Judaism with the advent of Chassidut. And, of course, it was incredibly well written. (For those inquiring minds who wish to know, the runner up was Cathy Davidson’s Now You See It.)

  • Favorite work of fiction

    The Man from Primrose Lane by James Renner. So I have a to-read list problem. This is infinitely better than having no to-read list, but it still presents a problem. There are over 100 books on the list and I tend to forget to consult it when I am in the library. The way it usually works is I look at the list, sort the books based on obscure memories of which genre I think they fall into and then go to the library and forget all about it. But because the list is vaguely in my head, I more often than not pick up a book that is, in fact one I have been meaning to read. This is how I got Primrose Lane; I saw it on the New shelf at the library, picked it up and started reading it one Sunday night. I thought it was literary fiction. Then I began the book and realized it was actually a very clever mystery novel. Then I got halfway through the book and told the categorizing part of my brain to shut up and go away, I was too busy reading. This was around the time when I went complaining to my husband that I was reading a really good book. He was puzzled why this would be a cause for complaint until I explained that I would not be able to go to bed until it was done. It was that kind of book. I would explain more about it, but part of the joy for me was being surprised every time the plot swerved in a completely new direction and I wouldn’t want to ruin that. But the writing itself made me think of some odd combination of Ian MacEwan and Kate Atkinson, only decidedly American and with a tinge of science fiction.

And there you have it. The joys of vacation.

Moving

As the title might suggest, this is more a post about why I haven’t had anything to say recently rather than about saying anything interesting. In lieu of that, I will provide photos.

So, on Sunday, we (meaning me and my husband) moved all the stuff I had accumulated over the course of a year from my old, university owned, undergraduate apartment to my new, university owned, family housing apartment. The three main differences, as far as I can tell, are that this place was designed with the assumption that the lessee might actually use the kitchen, this place is a one bedroom, as opposed to the studio I occupied previously, and I can no longer hear the frats partying at stupid o’clock in the morning. A win on all three counts.

There is one other difference, which is less of a win. This place is unfurnished (which makes complete sense as the people moving here likely have furniture). And while I had more things by the time I moved than I had when I got here (I came with two suitcases and three boxes from Amazon), very little of it was furniture.

So Sunday was an adventure. Despite my propensity for leaving everything to the last minute and assuming that I have less stuff that, as it turns out, I have, we were pretty much ready to move as soon as we picked up the car on Sunday morning. And we managed to get everything in three trips, one of which was devoted entirely to moving my one piece of furniture, the futon.

Then we went furniture shopping and, by dint of exploring antique shops, Staples and Home Depot, acquired a bedside table, a TV stand, a bookcase, a desk chair and patio furniture.

You may notice some interesting things not on that list. Like a bed. A table and chairs for the living/dining room. A dresser. As it happens, we ordered the bed a day later and it was delivered on Tuesday. The dresser and table and chairs are still on the to-get list and are more difficult to find because there is no IKEA nearby. I am disappointed in whichever Swede is responsible for this travesty.

So the boxes are unpacked, the place is beginning to be organized and the list of things I still need has been divided into roughly three categories. The first, as previously mentioned, is necessary furniture. The second is “Stuff sold at Bed Bath and Beyond” and includes organizing-y things. The third is decor. My walls look very sad and empty and, seriously, if I have a patio, it needs plants. Plants that grow well in the shade and plants that won’t send my husband into a sneezing fit, true, but foliage of some form is necessary.

Since most of you can’t come out and see the new place in person, I will inflict pictures of it upon you instead. I am not even an amateur photograph…ess? photographrix? Anyway, what I am saying is that the purpose of these images is to give you an idea of our new apartment, not to stun anyone with color, composition or talent. This also means that I apologize for the weirdness in color.

Living Room:

The bag glows with preternatural light…

Living Room 2:

The other side of the living room, or what you would see if you actually sat on the couch

The Kitchen:

Why yes, this is the most exciting room in the house. And it’s now kosher!

The Bedroom:

Everyone say hi to Shnu, the bear…and ignore the pile in the corner that’s waiting for a dresser so it can finally live somewhere.

The Bedroom 2:

This is the cleanest that any desk of mine ever has been or ever will be again

The Patio:

Santa Barbara weather means never having to eat inside…so long as you have enough sweatshirts

And there you have it! Before the summer is up, I predict that my valiant efforts to put things away will have failed entirely, that the bookshelf will be completely filled up and I’ll be considering whether to pick up another one and that I will still be lacking at least one necessary piece of furniture.

But I’ve already had my reward for a move well done: Steak and Petit Syrah at Tierra Sur.

Note: the well done refers to the move, not the steak. The steak was most definitely rare.

#DHSI2012

For the past five days, I’ve been at Nerd Camp for Adults in Victoria.

Except we call it DHSI, or the Digital Humanities Summer Institute. This year it consists of 420 academics in different stages of their careers–M.A.s, Ph.D.s and professors–who join together to discuss the roles of the following in the humanities: markup languages, big data, visualizations, computational analysis, digitizing text, building better online text interfaces and, most importantly, how to crowd-source vital information, like the location of the best beer in Victoria.

The experience has been incredible, and I say that despite having spent every waking hour that wasn’t devoted to DHSI preparing for the presentation I gave today (over Skype) and the related paper (due Monday). In fact, I should be working on the paper now. But procrastinating is far more fun.

On a slightly separate note, if you’re interested in either George Eliot’s Daniel Deronda or in finding out more about the work I’ve been doing this quarter on turning books into visual…art is a strong term, check out this post on our group blog, Ludic Analytics, for details. It’s got lots of colors and even some thoughtful responses. And if you’re feeling adventurous, check out the rest of the site to see what else we’re up to.

But this is about DHSI. The experience of being here has entirely made up for the stress of getting here. Which was no picnic. I was supposed to fly from Santa Barbara to San Francisco and then from San Francisco to Victoria. I’d be there by 1 pm, I would have time to relax on Sunday before gearing up for the conference on Monday, I would have time to argue with security if they refused to let my frying pan through. (Yes, I brought a frying pan. I needed to eat and there wasn’t going to be any food on Victoria’s campus I could eat other than salad. I was not living on salad for a week. I just prayed that none of the security agents had ever seen Tangled.) It turned out I had ample time, as my flight was delayed two hours, which meant the poor ticket agent had to find another way to get me to Victoria as I would miss my connection. SFO was having issues. So she eventually got me on a 145 flight from SFO to Vancouver and then a 7 pm flight from Vancouver to Victoria. She couldn’t guarantee that I would be in Vancouver to make any earlier flight, as the delays around San Francisco were so bad.

As it turns out, the delays worked in my favor. I also probably looked very pathetic. And didn’t have any checked baggage. When I got to San Francisco, it was 1135 and there was an 1141 flight that had been delayed for half an hour due to traffic. So I managed to get on that flight (they had space and, as I said, I looked and felt and probably was pathetic) and landed in Vancouver at 230. One hour later, I was through customs and had 3 and a half hours in Vancouver to kill. So I killed them by finding the Air Canada ticket counter and begging to go on standby for the 4 pm flight to Victoria. Amazingly enough, it worked again and I was on the ground in Victoria by 430, on a bus to the University of Victoria by 5 and checking into my room by 530. Only three hours later than I should have been had all gone well.

So I’m not going to provide a day by day accounting of what I did, as I assume that will be boring for anyone not rabidly interested in whether there’s an <inspiration> tag in TEI, for example. But I do want to talk about a few things.

Unconferencing: One of the things I love about DHSI is how well it works as an unstructured entity. During the lunch breaks, people gathered together in different classrooms around campus to discuss random topics of interest. The topics were chosen on day one and people just wandered in and out of group conversations about things that were on everyone’s mind. Reading on a screen, for example, or ways to practice digital pedagogy. And it was a great way to explore a topic and find out what other people in the field are doing with it in a casual way. I’m not the first to laud the power of the unconference, but this was my first exposure to it and I thought it was great. It creates a new level of discourse that involves the audience on a stress-less level, without the seriousness and presentation-y-ness of a conference.

Twitter: And speaking of casual involvement, I have to put in a word for Twitter as an academic tool. No, really, hear me out. I was aware that there was an academic Twittersphere before this conference, (weren’t you?) but I hadn’t quite figured out how it worked. During a colloquium, or a class, people would have their computers open to take notes, but instead or along with taking detailed notes on talks or classes, they would tweet in quick bursts about the discussion and tag it #dhsi2012 along with other relevant tags, like the speaker’s name. This creates a public notebook, so to speak, where people can retweet other people’s notes if they find them helpful, reply to them and start a whole new discussion, ask the presenter questions that she can answer later and, every so often, exclaim about the rain of caterpillars that was plaguing the campus.

What, you thought I was kidding?

It requires a certain amount of multitasking to pull off and not everyone participated, but I really benefited from having this whole, second level of discussion going on underneath the primary talk. It also gave me a chance to catch up when I inevitably snuck in to the 8 am colloquium at 830. (As I mentioned to my mother, DHSI is tiring. It begins at 8, ends at 6 and then there’s all my other work to do.)

General Geekery: I have to say, though, one of the best bits about DHSI is the geekiness of everyone involved. Aside from the fact that a number of the people involved in DH switched in from jobs in computer science, so many of the topics felt like stuff that would have been out of bounds even 5 years ago in the academic establishment. Like using games for education, or creating interactive classrooms. People are doing really cool stuff. Also, I’ve discovered that there is a standard nerdy sense of humor that seems to infect everyone. I came back to our townhouse last night and discovered my roommates watching Monty Python on an iPad.

To leave you with something other than just the vague sense that I’m so glad I came (and the less-vague sense of impending doom as I pray that all my flights and connections tomorrow are on time and I don’t get stranded anywhere), here are a few pictures from this excursion.

UVic’s Campus, Right Outside the Library

So this is where I’ve been all week. It’s been about 55 degrees and alternating between cloudy and sunny. This was taken just as the clouds were clearing this afternoon.

This is First Year Housing at UVic

Can I complain, just a little, about how gorgeous the first year housing is? It’s a two-level townhouse with kitchen, living room and four single bedrooms. (The kitchen was critical for me…and I am so grateful that they had electric burners which take all of five minutes to make kosher. This is why I needed them to not take away my frying pan when I went through security.) But why couldn’t the universit(y|ies) I attended have such amenities?

Best Chair Ever?

This is where I’m sitting right now.

I’d show you the actual pictures from DHSI, but it’s just people sitting in an auditorium or a computer lab or a classroom looking busy. You can’t see that awesome things are happening but, trust me, they are.

Oh, and if you’re interested in what I actually DID while here, check out the following link, which has some of the results of the text analyses I learned how to make over the course of this week: Back to Textual Basics.

P.S. – I am amused by the fact that it’s the Queen’s Jubilee this week and I’m using money with her face on it. Also the 2 dollar coins here look like 10 shekel coins, which makes sense in my head, but the 1 dollar coins look like 1/2 shekels, which completely throws me off.